"Long distance" relationship??

 

Remember the proposal? Hmm... Here we go..

We shall see what happens next..  

The self-claimed.. demanding Jane... How long can she handle it?? 

leaving the question there with a.. Hmm........

Things happened.. Things changed....

Looking back at it...Half a year ago... 

How did it break.. and how did fate bring ppl together..

Had enuf of words behind my back..

Jane knows wat is best for her.. full stop....

Exam was tough.. FYP is still proceeding like a pain in the ass...

FUH~~~~

Holidays are the only thing I look forward to...

The only light I see in the long dark tunnel?

I want I want holiday!!

First exam of the year...
Again..
A bad start~!
fuh.....

First class honours??
So near yet so far....
It is getting further n further away from me...
sigh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

How bad is it to graduate without a first class?

Lower salary...
Status and face problem...
Family's expectation...
and the most important thing...
JANE CANT FACE HERSELF!

gosh~~

The pressure is so bad that it affects many parts of my life..
Ppl around are sick of my emotions..
I wish I could just hide away from these...

17/4/2014!

Damn... I want this day to come fast!

Help me~~ Support me~~
I need to breathe... deep deep breath.... hu... heee....
:(
Days are so dark ahead...

Law of attraction?
yea.. shud stay positive!

stay alive...
Keep moving..
keep pushing......

Time for some updates..

13/12-14/12

Sis's wedding

Wishing her and her husband a happy marriage n great life ahead!
erm.. I really mean it when I say this.. Ops... lol..

It was a bz weekend for my family
Well, one big occasion for all of us thou.. especially dad n mum..
Good or bad. We are one BIG happy family:)

Yeap... of all the running up n down..
Love the dressing up part thou..
Being in engineering studies for too long tat I forget how I look like in dress and make up..
:)

15/12

As usual, the second celebration after the dinner..

I gave myself an early birthday "GIFT"...

Misplaced Two of the most important documents of mine..
ARGH~~!!

Mistakes were done.. a price to pay...
money money fly...
time allocated for studies has to be sacrificed for all the follwing troublesome processes...
police station.. jpn.. jpj...
adui~~~~~

hmm... aside from the valuable stuff nd documents...
The pouch is one memorable gift..
I....
I want it back~~:(

16/12

Birthday eve!!

Party time~~!!

What doesnt kill you makes u stronger...?




Just kill me pliz..........................................
a tough one... Real tough one:(


When frustration and anger take over every single positive strength, you cry you struggle.. and you still have to stand back up straight...
Stay focus on what's the aim of life..
Keep reminding myself that this is not the end... the best part has yet to come...

There is no easy way out in life..
You can have things falling into place in such a smooth path all way thru..
Born with an easy life? Wealthy future ahead?

Looking at it further... The satisfaction is so much greater with things earned by own ability n intelligence.

" I am not the worst afterall..."
Keep tat in mind~!!

Enjoy every moment of life with no regrets!

When I close my eyes I think of you
And the times we've had been through
Even though were far apart right now

I remember back when you were here with me
How you've make my world complete
But now I'm left alone

We talked about love and hope
Wishing we could start a life our own
I wish that I could live without you

Why did you tear my heart apart
You said you'll love me from the start
All those painful things you've put me through
But I'm still loving you
I've tried to give my best to you
I don't deserve the things you do
Everything has gone to memories
I just wish I knew the truth behind the lies

Why did you tear my heart apart
You said you'll love me from the start
All those painful things you've put me through
But I'm still loving you
I've tried to give my best to you
I don't deserve the things you do
Everything has gone to memories
I just wish I knew the truth
behind the lies

Jane.. breaking into pieces day by day...

I was mentally prepared for stress and the tough challenges before the year started..
yeah~~
Nvr know tat it would be this BAD...
I really mean it.. bad n getting worse....

Shedding tears doesnt mean I am weak..
Just the immediate way out to release the bursting emotion...

I need help..
I need solutions..
I need TIME??

Is this wat I want in life?
I would rather be a goose wandering around the lake.. than to be an ugly duckling working like mad...

These few months will be a war zone in and around me..
Bear with my temper.. bear with my tears.. bear with my break down over n over again..

All I need is support and support from ppl around..

Help n guide me thru this.................................................sigh..
Emotionally affected...:(
** teary eyes and broken soul...............

IF.....

A BIG word that covers all the regrets and possibilities in life..

I could have already loss my life IF I was few seconds late...

And..

Appreciation??
Regrets?
If??

Link them up~~!