Can i just stop asking for perfection????

i am living in a never-slow-down pace for the past 18 years....

i need everything to be in controlled...
i need to have lotsa lotsa plans ahead...
i need everything to fall into place as planned...
i just wan perfection in everything i do...!

"u are not gonna enjoy ur life living in tat pace... don over-do watvea u are into...."

tat was a statement i got straight into my face from some1 i care so much....
n... it does strike at my nerves~~fuh....

my studies...
my career plan....
my appearance...
even... relationship...
i am trying so hard to get the best n perfect ones...
who dont rite?

i gotta admit tat i am too extreme at times...
ah~~~
i am changing my mindset n re-evaluating myself...

here i am in my blog when i have another 24mins to my test....
great....!

if u noe wth JOVEN the water heater company is...
hell ya...
i went for a job interview for my internship there yesterday...
ah! tat freaked me out....

anyway.. keeping it short....
they made me realised how "insignificant" i am....in a good way la...
hmm.... thought a lot the whole nite...
i gotta do something about it....
to stand out among the crowd of dipl or degree holders out there...
something extra has to be done....

taking extra course?
i am considering tis....

wokay...
19mins left..
chiaoz.....

*i am having prob with my internet connection at home...
college is the only place i have access to the "outside" world... lol!..

"Class is cancelled"

Isnt tat the best line of the day?....


damn....
woke up at 6 plus as usual....
i was still trying to get an "illegal" parking spot for my car when the clock is already showing 7.57am...
"great" ... i am late for the class AGAIN...

rush n rush... didnt bother to check my msg....
while i was speeding my way to the class....
took my fon out....
n there it goes...
" guys.... digital class is cancelled"...

toot........................................@#@!!!
tat expressed it all la....


n now...
i am stuck here in de lab for 3 hours to my next class.....................

wat a day la!

ah~~
i am feeling de 6 subs burden now.....
getting heavier day by day.....
~~~!




bubble tea....
how i wish if u are rite in front me with a "drink me!" sign on u........

wokay....
just in case if u didnt receive my msg...

i CHANGED my FON NUM!...
which is...
010...wait wait... refer to *126# again....

0102490694

de num n i just dun click la...
o1o??! wat lame num u can giv....
hav to get used to it thou....
sigh....

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

life's weird without him...
getting used to it slowly n move on back to the path i shud be taking....

emo Sh*t~~~~~~~~~

argh!...

tis time it's for real....


i put a full stop to de relationship~~~~

back to being single as before.....




i shud just keep de reasons to myself...
n as i said before...
let's move on.............!

we argue over small matter...
we just had to put ourselves into some dramatic issues at least once a week...

n now...
when we stop arguing... stop having long conversations...
awkward-ness appears when there's silence....
de real problems have just started, dont they?
hmm.........

i can see the alarm ringing...
"red light alert"...
time is up... i suppose.....

u cant deny the fact tat half a year is more than enuf....
go on with life man!...

i am moving forward..... finding place where i belong to..... hope u are as well :)