tat was de biggest cover-up story i hav eva made!...
de greatest lie..
one hell of an experience...
u name de rest....
gosh....

Of all de mess n shits i hav been thru...
this incident would no doubt be de top of de worst...

u wouldnt imagine how relieve i was after everything got settled...

de helpless moment...
de shaky hands n teary eyes...
tat all lasted for a fucking 7 hours...
all by MYSELF...

all in all...
no point sharing de details here...
it's a nightmare which i dun hunger for replay...
so freaking glad tat it's over with no other consequences to bear...

N..
i owe u a big one..MR RON...
i would have been torn apart if u were not there...

If there's anything i can do to pay back.. i will!..
u hav my words for this..
for everything u have done...
i noe... u are de greatest bro eva!... * n i dun understand y someone tag a "worst bf eva" on u.. dumb ass who needs to open her eyes n start APPRECIATING!

i am not being immature....

i am facing a long time under-pressured condition which none of u can understand...

dont judge me if u don feel de pain....

i am being called dumb.. idiot... stupid... every single day n hours...
everything i do just seem to be WRONG to him...

being treated tat way for the pass few days is fucking torturous..
n i am starting to feel like an idiot as wat he describes...

i remembered some1 asked me... hav i ever thought of ending my life?

i wan to giv him de answer now...

yea...
i am thinking about it now...
every details...
every steps...

i cant take this any longer..
i just cant...!

i lost to tat bastard...

my tears gav in..

a 11 hours mental torture...
any1 who can stand tat pliz guide me thru...

only 1 day passed and i already felt like a year....
sigh...............

tis is a slow and unconscious suicidal...
ah~~~
my stomach.....
damn....

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

2moro is de day!!!...
de day where my 3 months nightmare starts....

all i need to do is to make myself deaf in this period...
ignore tat asshole...
ur scolding will not affect me!!

say goodbye to 4.0!

damn u digital elec!


it was exactly how i felt when i sat for my form 5 midterm add math paper...
i can still recall how it was when my tears dropped right after i handed in de paper back den...

n today...
dat bladdy digital electronics make me go thru it AGAIN...

my hands were shaking n my mind went blank just like tat.
i couldnt retrieve bac de info tat i squeezed into my brain for de past few weeks...
looking at de paper... i wonder if i can even get a B for tis subject...

de feeling of guilt is haunting all over me now...
i noe it's over.. i noe it's pointless thinking n crying over it..
i nOE~..!

i cried...
i screamed..
i ate as much as i can...
i tried to put myself to sleep..
but i just cant forget it!!!

sigh...
sob sob...

can someone pliz slap me n tell me it's OVER!

my 4.0...
4.0~~!!
ah~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok world...


GOOD NITE!!!

Magnetic... here i come 2moro~!!!

oh yes...
"A real man doesnt hit a woman!"

To those guys who think u can get full control over our lives when we are wit u...
U are a true DUMB ASS....!!

tat f***ker did prove this statement.
a 100% brainless man who have been living in his own world all his life.

I am glad.. VERY GLAD indeed tat u finally see his true colour....
dont eva put urself bac in tat monster's hand.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
N....

one statement for u...

"A true fren is alwiz there during ur good n bad times. But not to appear when he/she smells ur $$$"

It's time to stop being de "sacrificer" in de group...
step up n learn how to say NO~!

tried out the cafe express yest nite...
nice environment thou..
leng cai banyak:)
hehe......

some of our midnite activities>>

de auntie wit green slippers...

de uncle wit topi putih...

dont get cheated by her "pro" look...

hahah~~!

ajar la sikit...adui.....

peace~~~:)

ok.... AL... u win!...
i gave in AGAIN.....


for all these memories...
i am doin this for de LAST time!

i meant it,..
LAST!!

u can do wateva u like on me if i break my words de next time...
n i swear hard on tis...
this will be de last time....

My lappy is here...:)

see see>>>
*very proud.. hahaha

nice le....

hahahhaa......

i just had to leave...

u hav options to make but not for me...
u will nvr change if i dun make de next move...

this is de best decision for us i suppose..





i hate crying for u...
tat feeling sucks~~

i love u too.....

i asked for break up for de n times...

n i am gonna make sure tis is de last.....

i have learnt my lesson well....

money comes first in everything... EVERYTHING~!