it was a mistake from de start itself...

blame no1 but myself...

i am definitely not allowing myself to turn into a b*tch like her...
it's a big NO NO...

sometimes u just hav to accept de way life is...
when it's time to giv up something, u had to no matter how torturous it is...

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

i am sorry if tis holiday was disastrous for u...
didnt mean to hav it tis way..
with these kind of ppl.... these kind of shit...

everything will fall into place very soon..
as u said...
things will nvr work out with de communication like tat...

gal.. save a place for me in the "hunting club"...
i am joining u very very soon...
lol...............

i am on de newspaper???!!!
hahahaha..........

i was flipping thru de star paper tat morning as usual....
flip flip n flip...
till de education section....
KDU's ads...
my face??!!

hahahahah.........

i got a shock out of it wei...
seeing urself on a newspaper?
hmm..
tats something new...
hahaha

btw..
check it out la...
wed's star paper...
frame it up man... ahahhahahahahahah

damn u joven!!

dear gals...
i am very sorry about it~~~
pai se....................................

dreamt about the past... n some other impossible imagination of mine...

visited someone's fb profile de next day..

n i was so sO SO jealous when i saw those pics...

yea..
she's prettier...
she's thinner..
she's smarter...*her look said so...lol...

they look so great as a couple...
jealousy strikes me at tat moment...n still feeling it now..

haih...
it's my bad to let go...
my bad...
haih...

de feeling never fades off after so many years i guess...
sigh~~~~

i was never a good daughter n i am still not.....

but..
this is not de lesson i wan for me to learn how to appreciate....
it will cost me too much~
not money wise but everything in my life....


i can do ntg but pray for de best....

y must money comes into de picture each n every time??

y must money be de issue of every arguments we hav??

y cant we live peacefully without concerning bout tat bladdy shit??

i wan a perfect guy...!
where is he?
y havent he appear in my life??





our one year deal...
de deadline of our relationship...



never-ending mother daughter issue~~
boyfie n my financial crisis...

ah~~~~!!
when all these gonna end???!!

i dun hav time for my precious lil diary here...
aiks...

anyway....
just dropping by to say...

HI!... i am still ALIVE~~~............




lame one..i noe...