dilemma~~!!

should i? shouldnt i????

ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

found a job...

found a room...

everything is off to go...

all i need now is a GREEN light from myself...

i'm in de yellow light where i can choose to put a full stop to being a part in my family...or i can put everything down, forgive n forget...

wat should i do now???

this is a decision which will turn my life upside down...

i...

i...

i...

i hav no idea wat to do now~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i hav already been thru few emotional days...

mentioning the matter will only turn my tears flow on...

a special thanks to u for being wit me these few days!

u noe who u are... lol..

anyway...anyhow...

i'm standing back on my feet to continue my journey...

whether or not to move out...

lets just pray de best for wat is about to come!!

*edited previous post..

no more misunderstanding pliz...

Handling these matters one after another isn't fun!

i'm so worn out tat i wan to be totally ALONE~

i felt as thou i've lost all de precious things in my life in just days...
this week sucks to de extreme!

whether or not it's a misunderstanding... it doesn't matter anymore...
* if it is... my apologies to u & u & u & u
even if it is me tat u are referring to, i choose to let things down...
u are right... 10 years doesnt come easily...

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

n to the 'she' who i've faced since i opened my eyes to de world...
ur words hav torn me into pieces...
ntg else can hurt me more than how u did...

"i dont belong to this family"...

mum... u hurt me 'well' enuf..



Again... i chose to leave...
running...avoiding... hiding... from all hurtful things...

i wish i could dissapear~~

i shoudnt exist in de 1st place~!