不知是祸还是福.......

I guess everything falls from the latter to the former...

It was a mistake from the start?

A wrong timing?

A bad decision?

A risky move which shouldnt have been made in the first place when i foresee all these...

I fell hard this time.. real hard...

trying many ways to find myself...

cover the pain with fun n laughter

yet... I couldnt........couldnt...............................................................

everything comes back when there is no one around...

Tears in front of them make me look so silly...

siblings were freaked out..

daddy knocking on my door...

mummy does wat she does best...

I cant stand back up straight again......

Tats wat I ask for... nvr run nvr avoid...

clear all the doubts all the questions...

I dun hate u.. not at all..

For all the heartache.. all the tears...

I thank u for the lessons u gave me..

"Jane.... You have got to Learn how to enjoy life. Your personality will bring you far, but, do not let others take u for granted. Enjoy living at the moment is important. When you have achieved wateva u aimed for, u look back n realised that you have forgotten to live for yourself. Regret is too late by den........ I see my younger self in you."

That was from Dr N.


I was so speechless by the time she finished.

Learn how to enjoy life???

Hmm... there are just so many thoughts on this statement...

Thou she only saw the one side of Jane... But... she is right in a way..
I have my own entertainment, I have my own way of releasing the frustration and pressure..
Do i really enjoy them?? or I am just plainly putting smile to my face?
Fuh.....
The pressure is so bad that I start hiding my feelings.
Assuming everything is fine is how I get over it?

Her friendly advice is really one wake up call..
I do not want to live to the age of 50 and realised that I have nothing but money and status.

LEARN TO LIVE FOR URSELF!

Ups and downs..

Laughter and tears..

Hope and disappointment..

Ur presence in my life for the past few months is like a roller- coaster ride..

No one is to be blamed for any failure of the relationship.

That's wat life is all about..

Accept the failures and move on... learn from mistakes?

There are certain things I am firm and I hold on to my principle..

The good intention is appreciated..

But yeah.. 

I guess I choose to keep my words

The drama of family issues from both sides..

Misunderstanding of certain individual...**I doubt that...

dot dot dot..

There are too many ppl.. too many unnecessary things involved..

I got to make a choice

For that...

I choose to leave a LDR

I choose to leave the future conflicts with ppl that are real pain in the a*s..

I choose to live with my own ability and belief in myself..

I choose none of both and move on.........

"Single bell.. Single bell...Single always...."

Tats from her...

***Touchwood~~! :):)

命运就算颠沛流离
命运就算曲折离奇
命运就算恐吓着你做人没趣味
别流泪 心酸 更不应舍弃

一生之中兜兜转转 那会看清楚
旁徨时我也试过独坐一角像是没协助
在某年 那幼小的我
跌倒过几多几多落泪在雨夜滂沱

一生之中弯弯曲曲我也要走过