finally...
after 6 years.........
i can say goodbye to my specs which i used since i was 12...
lol.....

fyi...
i just bought myself contact lenses
couldnt bare myself walking around as a half blind gal.......

it isnt as easy as it looked thou...
placing tat soft little thingy in ur eyes de whole day is so distracting n uncomfortable...
n did i mention de taking n removing part..
fuh..
tats de scariest part of all........

i spent half n hour in my loo just to remove de lenses from my eye ball...
for god sake....
i hav to touch my eye balls......
nvr knew de feel of touching my own eye balls till 2day...
lol....

still in de process of noe-ing de lenses well....
haha....
apa boleh buat...
for de sake of beauty...
a bit of sacrifice is a must la....

here are some of de sp outing's pics....
>>>>
lov them!
;)

me n roy de hottie... hahaha

wat a smile... lol..

from left: anandh, suphon, jane, brintha, vick, ma ma ji, pat...
n roy de cameraman...

us after de awesome transformer!

how i wish if i could find another gang of crazy frenz like u guys in KDU...

too bad....

tat would only appear in my dream i guess.......

hmm.....

next week will be de mid term exam d....

i am currently in a "apa pun tak ada" condition...

couldnt get access to de kcn... no notes... nothing...

all thanks to de Mr K who went for his 2 weeks holiday...

faster approve de bladdy scholarship thing la...

fuh.......

i need to get contact lenses...!

almost blind d...

lol....

eyesight getting from bad to worst.....

exco reunion + sate kajang + nicholas teo in jj + sold out transformer tic....
tat was basically my sat nite....

a random outing which brings us lepaking together like old times...
lov de "hehe" "haha" tat we alwiz do whereeva we go...
lol......

we were in jj for nicholas teo.... KONONNYA la...
he ad cabut by de time we reached there thou....

met some of my ex-schoolmates....
chee keen... eileen... xi kai...
sorry ya chee keen...
really cant recognise u tat time....
my "great" eyesight plus... u did change a lot!..
couldnt recognise him even he waved....
lol...
lol...
pai se....hehe....

btw....
i'll be working in Kim gary JJ bt starting next week....
$$$... haha....huhu....

Transformer 2 is AWESOME!!!....
woohoo!!....
damn cekap man.....
screw de wateva movie reviews tat de critics gav la....
it was a 9/10 one....
not dat perfecto coz it was kinda TOO long la 2 hrs n a half....
lol....
butt pain ar sit so long....

btw.... de outings with those INTI-ans.... lol....
went back inti...
settle de LAN thingy...
kena cheat by de AC car park... paid 3 bucks for a 15 min parking.... damn!.
headed to sp with Roy...
met up mama ji...! miss her so much....
lepak while waiting for de others... suphon... anadh... vick.. pat... brinthI...
too bad la..
i was rushing back...
if not i would hav be in mamak-ing with u guys....

Harry potter!..
our next one k.....
c ya guys by den!...
* life sucks without u guys in kDU!...... sob... sob......
emo emo...............................................

Had to rush back to klg later on...
headed to jojo's hse for her bday bbq party....
from 8.... 7.... 6.... now.. 5 budak left.....
sigh.....
nvm... we are still de picture freak....
lol...
>>>>>.

us!!!!

i am goin sunway for TRANSFORMER 2 tommoro!!!!....
yea!!!...

n de best part....
cant wait to meet my INTI frenz!!!....
jamie!!! mei ji!!!...
long time no see...........!!!!

excited...cant wait...huhuhuhu

things are getting back on track....

thought life will be super tough for me in kdu....
everywhere i turn are guys guys guys....
percentage of malaysian walking up n down in de engineering school pun around 50% ni...

anyhow...
wasnt so bored as i expected....
at least i hav a gang of ppl to teman me for my lunch break....
lol....
aaron n ryan's gang....
basically.... can kira de majority of de diploma EEE n TCE chinese students....

most of them are in sem 7... which is de last sem for diploma...
me pulak... de one n only sem 1.....
i repeat... SEM SATU!~
lol....

n yea...
they are all guys...
there's another gal in de gang la.... josephine her name..
but seldom meet her... sob sob...

they are kinda friendly la...
didnt feel tersisih or some anak terbiar....
squeez in de car...
go out makan with them...
chit chat...
so far so good la...

Am i a true failure??
i hate myself for being myself....!




Grandma got admitted into de hosp tis morning...
she fell in de toilet n got he fragile bone cracked....

If u noe jane...
u must hav knew how grandma is to her...

"person tat influence u de most"
"person tat u admire de most"
"person tat u love n respect de most"
all these essay titles sound familiar to most of us i believe...
lame ques to get during secondary skool life...

believe it o not...
there's only one person i talked n wrote about...

my Ah ma.....
a person who i live with for at least 8 years...
a person who was de first closest 1 i get along with...
a person who i hug n sleep with for my 7 or 8 years of childhood...
a person....
de list will take me foreva to finish................


just came back visiting her in de hosp...
i am sad yet angry...........
sad to see how much she is goin thru...
de pain physically n mentally...

ANGRY for me... us... for being such useless son.. grandchildren... n family.........
an simple action...
buy a new n bigger base tongkat instead of her unstable 1 tat she was using...
it is just simply taking few min of our time....
get one from de pharmacy for her....

So many of us in de family... y none of us can take de initiative to get tat for her...
talk... blame.... simply pointless rite...
she is 86...
she is old...
she is weak...
n when accident happened...
"i shud hav bought de thing for her earlier.."
"i shud hav...."

BULLSHIT!!!!!

yes... i am angry!...
angry of him... angry of her....
n me MYSELF!...
we are enjoying life like nobody's business...
buy this.. buy tat...
go here... go there....
did anyone actually think of how she is suffering....
an old woman who just lost her partner...
children... grandchildren... who are all bz with their lives...
spending her time by waiting for de time to pass.....
...........
.......
.......


if u could see how she spend her time daily...
if u could see how she is suffering when dealing with simple things like walk... stand up after a long sit... goin to de toilet.....etc...
if u could sit down n listen to her life time experience....
if u got de chance to look into her eyes... hold her hands.....

u would understand how i feel rite now....


i was holding back my tears in de ward...
dun dare to look into her eyes....
i had to burst out in silence in de car.....
i noe i am over-reacting....
but when times tat i think tat she might leave us one day...
nothing else but tears..............

i hav more to continue...
it's betta i stop thinking too much....
she will be goin for operation 2moro morning....
whoeva prays.....
pray for her!....

hey YOU!!!...

dun try me....
i am not as patience as u see....

stop bothering her!!....

i am slowing getting used to de life in KDU...

so far...
haven meet any Mr X at de stairs tat they mentioned...
lol....

Nyway...
thanks to Aaron for being my tour guide...
bringing me around de college n so on...
dun try to scare me bout Mr X....
haven think of any reaction when it really appears in front of me...
hahaha....

com lab...
library...
classes...
if they were to be compare between both coll tat i attended...
i would say...
KDU is betta....

de com lab is 8 times bigger than de 1 in INTI...
library pulak...
more spacious la....

btw...
i am currently finding frenz to teman me for my lunch break...
lol...
Aaron... u gonna be de 1st mangsa... lol.....

hey YOU.....

thanks for being sarcastic!..
thanks for insulting her indirectly...
thanks for ur "sincere" care n advise....
thanks for everything u hav done...

i noe wat i'm doin...
they noe how to do wat they suppose to do...

so... keeps ur hands n mouth off........







too bad if u perasan after reading this la ya........

i am officially a KDU student.....
said "goodbye" to INTI just now....
it was kinda emotional....
de frenz....
de lecturer...
de library..
de reading room....
de toilet...
de 8th floor office...
de com lab...
de Mc D...
de Silva...
de AC..
de BC..
de.......... memories.......

to my classmates...
I would like to apologise for leaving without early notice...
i myself only "get" de notice few hours be4 i go to bed yesterday nite....
I am SORRY........sob sob...
especially to my MPW group members who will be presenting de assignment 2moro...
JAMIE... MA MA JI.... BRINTHA.... PAT.....
so so so sorry ya guys........
n all da best for de presentation!..

n to de rest of my classmates...
Roy... Suphon... Anandh.... CK... Naveen....n others....
i'll see u guys when i see u k....
out for lunch.... movie... n our BALI trip.....
dun exclude me ya... haha!...
u guys are de awesome classmates la.........
will miss ya!!!!.......

n my new direction of life.....
being a part of de engineering course rite now....
E & E....

attended my first class 2day...
it was in my expectation thou....
de only girl in class.....
9 other guys....

something i didnt expect was....
i felt as thou i am studying in some foreign country... Nigeria or watsoeva...
everyone seems "black"....
hahhahah!...
cant get a betta word to describe.... hahahha!...
there's only me n Alfred are chinese or i shud put it as...Malaysian...
de others are foreign students who speak some language which we dont understand most of de time...
even they speak english pun... i take damn long to get their point....
lol.......

so far so good la...
syllabus is ok....
study environment pun boleh tahan...
frenz pulak....
hardly see any gals walking around de engineering school...

so far...
Alfred... my classmate... from Ipoh...

Aaron from sarawak... a guy tat i met during de interview...
met him twice in de college just now... we were damn random... as thou we knew each other damn long... lol... lepak in de engineering school with him during my lunch break....

N another guy from Klg... cant remember wats his name.... gonna ask him whether he wanna car pool wit me not next time i c him.....

as i said earlier...
hardly see any gals around....
so sad la...

i can do it!...
i dunno whether engineering is my cup of tea not...
but i 'll make sure it is sooner or later...
n... i'll prove u guys wrong...
i can survive in de guys world....
i can survive in engineering field...
jane boleh!..
hahahahahha..........................

giv me five years time..
i'll prove whoeva tat dun agree.... WRONG...!
forgive me for being so offensive...
coz tis is JANE...!

Langkawi trip!

bryan n rabbit...

daniel...

esther n jane...

sis...

family pic...

mum n dad...

someone claims tat pics in my blog are TOO small...

hahah...

kinda enlarge it to medium size d...

can see rite... KENT....

lol...

thanks ya guys for those point of view n advises....

decision is all in my hand...
n...
i cant make 1.....
or i shud say...
i dun wanna make any..
i am afraid i screw up in future... n de person to blame is me MYSELF...

anyone?
how i wish if someone could stand rite in front of me n make tat bloody decision for me...
at least i hav someone to blame if i screw up...
hahahah.......
evil....hhaha..

most of them... including my parents...
dun really agree in me accepting de offer...

try standing on my shoes....
i dunno wat i wan....
dunno wat i like...
stuck in de middle of A levels course...
suddenly got an engineering course scholarship...
n...
make a decision within 2 DAYS!..

i am heading to langkawi tomorrow....
give me some time off...
i'll be back with a decision.....
will either be in INTI or KDU on monday.........

chaoz.............

jane is back in klang!...

besides aircond n my precious bed...
came back to attend de camp n mpab..
de 2 in 1 event...

apparently i had a lot to write bout de whole thingy...
de "lalang"... de insignificant... de invisible.. de derma darah..
hmm...
lost de mood in critising wateva shit tat happened...
i surely think tat we deserve to be treated betta....

after all....
besides the "layanan" tat we got...
they did pull out de function n presented it well...


n...
i am so glad to meet adibz n si botak aka faz....
adibz is goin pahang in 2 weeks time....
si botak just came back from ns.... thinner... n taller infact...
lol........
there's alwiz tis...
Ah!!...
a feeling tat will eventually come when i meet either one of my excos...
we are just us!...
hehe.....

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

a call from KDU college...

" U are offered a scholarship... diploma in electrical n electronic ENGINEERING"

btw....
i did go for de interview few weeks ago...
didnt expect i will get any reply...
God noes wat happened la...

i hav to register by next mon if i decide to accept de offer....
again!...
leaving A LEVEL...
leaving INTI...
to KDU...
to ENGINEERING....

wat is all tis...
life full of dilemma...!

y cant i just stick to one?
damn u JANE!

updates... updates....

amanda is in melacca now!...
wishing her ALL DA BEST....
hope she can cope with wateva de situation there n hav fun!
ops... with roghini i mean... lol...

Camp solferino is on tis coming tues...
it's de 7th one thou.... lol...
7th in de series....
definitely not gonna miss it..
so....
i will be back from subang on wed for de mlm kebudayaan....

btw.... daniel is participating....
he is extremely excited bout it....
wat 2 do... first camp for tat lil boy...
lol..........

They are goin langkawi tis fri...
n... i didnt noe my name was in de airline list...
which they bought de tic without my notice n agreement...
i dun wanna miss another fri's class....
hmm....
langkawi?
a place which i wanted to go so much last year...my spm vacation
too bad.... de plan got abandoned just like tat...

nyway...
i am still thinking whether to miss de class onot....
hmm...hmm.....

last one...
i still belum watch terminator!....
n transformer will be out in 2 weeks time...
night in de musuem still in my waiting list.......
sob... sob......

in pain.......
ah....
sigh......

just came back from gym in an"injured" condition.....
gosh.......

i fell in de gym....
*cry... cry........
damn men-sia sui- kan..........

i felt something wrong when i was using de treadmill..
my right leg was not in de usual condition...
didnt bother...
continue running for an hour...

hmm... de part where i fell...
joined de body step class later on....
its de class which we hav to jump up n down on de step board....
i kinda landed on my right leg....
dat babi leg didnt manage to support my body...
n...
i tripped n fell...............
hmm..........................................

de worst part was...
i was standing in de quite front row...
trust me... u dun wanna be there to watch all that.....
sia sui betul..

tis reminds me of de incident where i fell in de camp 2 or 3 years back...
had to come back with ambulance....
lol..............
lol.......
flashback...............

a lot to tell..
a lot to write...
n..
no idea where to start from.....
hmm...........

wanna watch movie..........
any1 free 2moro nite????